In Remembrance of Justin Chase Strouse

I'm so sorry.  I never imagined. I had no clue. I knew you were bumming out. We always got thru rough times together.  I thought you wanted space.  You were so busy with your career.  I did not want to be a bother so I let you alone. Your call on my birthday made all things good. I was relieved, happy, but no one told me. I should have known but you showed nothing to make me pay attention. Or did I just not listen? Not see the warning signs? I can't live with this guilt. Only you there's nothing other I'm dealing with. Your leaving gave the opportunity to rid me completely. But I won't let anybody rip my memories of you and the love this Mommie had for her Son