In Remembrance of Justin Ayson

My dear sweet boy.  My Angel.  When you were born my world changed forever.  I couldn't believe this precious miracle I was holding in my arms.  How had I gotten so lucky? What did I do to deserve such an amazing human being?

All through your life you were so kind, caring, and always worried about how others were doing.  Unfortunately, you didn't extend the same grace to yourself as you did to others. How could you have possibly felt you were a burden? How could you not have known the absolute joy and support you gave everyone who met you? And your sense of humor was off the charts, always making others laugh but never in a cruel way.

Now that you are gone my world has changed forever again and I don't like this world. It's not the same without you.

My precious boy, I am so sorry I didn't realize the depth of your pain. I pray you forgive me. I pray you are at a place of absolute peace and love. And I pray you can still see us, guide us, and be with us from wherever you are now. I pray I will see you again.

Justin, I love you forever and always.  Your mom.