In Remembrance of Andrew Steven Fortmann Reynolds

Andrew,

I can't begin to understand the pain you were in, or why you did what you did.  Those lies you believed were heartbreaking to all of us who loved you. There were no expectations you needed to meet, you weren't a failure, and you weren't unloved. Your mind told you those things, but they were lies. You were loved more than you knew, and we are left trying to put all the pieces together, but there's a big piece missing.

I'm so sorry for the ways I may have failed you. I wish you had let us in instead of pushing us away. You will always be my firstborn boy. I was so proud of your accomplishments. You were smart, funny, kind and gentle...our gentle giant.

I'm not sure how to move forward without you. I love you so much and my heart aches with missing you.

Love,

Mom