In Remembrance of Kaiden Ray Hewatt

You left this world too soon and now we are all left here to pick up the broken pieces of our shattered hearts. It's impossible for us to not feel guilty for your decision to leave so soon. I could never be mad at you for what you chose to do in a moment of pain. I know it took a lot of courage and strength to do it. I only wish you had been old enough to know that what you were feeling was only temporary. I would've protected you better if I had known what burdens you carried for all of us. I would give everything to see you smile one more time, to hear you laugh again, to feel your hugs, to just be beside you. I will never forget our walks to the trains, your jokes, our songs, your love for animals, family, friends and for me! My heart is so broken without you! I will never forget our last conversation, and I hope you see that I am taking care of that and I will never allow anybody to ever hurt me again, I'm sorry you had to see that. I pray that you forgave me for not being strong enough to walk away from that sooner. I'm never going backwards. I'm thankful for the time God gave me with you and maybe I'm selfish for saying, it wasn't enough time for me, I need you, son. I never thought I'd have to do this life without you in it. I'm trying so hard to push forward every single day. I miss you so much! I will always love you! You were too good for this earth. I just think every single day; he's gone fishing, he will catch us later. You will always be so loved and missed and never forgotten. You are always going to be my baby boy with 3 shushies ( 1 in your mouth, 1 in your hand, 1 in your pocket) wherever you were. I love you so much, Kaiden Ray.